Fracking Denied

There was a partial conclusion to our fracking fight last week. On December 15, 2021, the West Deer Township Board of Supervisors voted unanimously to deny the conditional use application for the Dionysus Deep Well Site.

In short, plain language: we won.

The driller will probably appeal the decision. They could submit a whole new application for another pad. We still have a public hearing for the same operator to build the Leto well pad in an even worse location. There's so much work left to be done, but for these few days in December, we can rest easy knowing that we did something here. We gathered over 100 of our neighbors and spent 40 hours in public hearings. We stressed and struggled and worried. And we won.

Moving in a New Direction with (Hopefully) Cleaner Air

The Coway Mighty HEPA Air Purifier

Right around the time the pandemic started making headlines for being "a thing" in the United States, my husband and I got sort of nominated by default to keep an eye on plans for two frack well pads proposed for our exurban northern Allegheny County, PA township. And that was a new thing for the two of us to undertake though fracking is nothing new in Pennsylvania. My parents live about an hour south in Washington County and historically the drive to visit them was miserable until the other side of Bridgeville. When fracking really got going in the 2010s, the miserable part of the drive shifted more to the Houston exit where you'd often get mixed in with convoys of water trucks and Ford F150 brigades speeding by as a sign of fracking induced "economic prosperity." Even Allegheny County had a few well pads in the outer reaches where crowded subdivisions give way to open forest and farmland. I'd been tangentially aware of all of this for quite some time. I thought that too many people live in my community for there to be fracking close by.

I was wrong.

Since I found out my error early in the process for these two specific well pads, there was plenty we could do to force the drilling company's plans into the spotlight. Being tenacious people (or as our 16-year-old puts it: annoying), Tim and I began to drown ourselves and our neighbors in information. We scrutinized the township ordinance and the conditional use application. (After first learning that the ordinance and conditional use application exist and what each required of companies that wanted to do business here.) I went to an environmental webinar every night and before long I was either a climate activist or a community organizer or something. Whichever name I picked or had assigned to me, I was something new. Life had once again shifted and I was off in a new direction. I've been keeping notes on our frack fighting experience. When this new great adventure is over, I hope to put that information somewhere that people might read it.

The board of supervisors will render a decision on the first of the two frack pads this week and as I strive not to look at that outcome as a referendum on my life's work for the past two years, it kinda will be. This ending (or half ending, there's still another hearing and decision that will happen in early 2022) is an apt time for reflection. Getting really informed on one environmental topic brought all kinds of new issues into my life. I've been thinking about the way I interact with the world, what difference I can make, and slingshotting wildly between hope and despair. My growing tendencies toward anti-consumerism and desire to #breakfreefromplastic have been reinforced by the climate action community and decimated by modern life in the real world. Here are just a few victories and setbacks experienced during two fairly isolated pandemic years.

1. There is no way to realistically #breakfreefromplastic in southwestern PA. Taking the advice of very wise Twitter advice-givers, I picked a couple of things and tried to replace them with zero-waste alternatives. The results were mixed.
   Eco-Strips Laundry Detergent: A delightful concept, a cardboard sleeve of pre-measured detergent is delivered in eco-friendly packaging. Each load of laundry takes one sheet of detergent stuff. No measuring liquid. No plastic. Should be wonderful. It was for a while until I noticed that the washing machine smelled like death. Or sewage. Or dead sewage. Now I have to use old-fashioned Tide most of the time and earth-saving laundry strips occasionally. The clothes (and washing machine) smell good, but it all feels like failure.
   Dish Washing Block: Sort of weird to use because it's bar soap. For dishes. I got over this and learned to lather and then wash and it worked for a while. It seemed like it clogged the kitchen drain and made it so the water backs up unless the disposal is running. Obviously, this might not be the dishwashing block's fault, but I went back to mostly using Dawn in the plastic bottle of failure. The sink is back to draining moderately better than it did during the dish block trial.
   Eco Bamboo-Charcoal Floss: The little plastic floss container isn't creating a whole lot of waste, but I did read that the Oral-B Glide floss preferred in our home was full of carcinogens and then I just couldn't enjoy oral hygiene. Enter bamboo floss in an adorable refillable glass container. This has been an absolute delight and a total victory.
   Seventh Generation Dishwasher Packs: Another attempt at consuming less chemicals. Did you know that dishwasher tabs interact with the specific water chemistry in your home and either make the fats from dirty dishes into little globs that rinse down the drain or alternately turn your dishwasher into a grease coated hellscape? I do now! I actually called the company and got my money refunded for this failure.
2. Just not buying stuff. Not buying stuff is a bit too subjective for the failure/victory narrative. Do we still buy stuff? Yes. Is it usually stuff we can eat or otherwise use to keep ourselves relatively healthy? Yes. Do we still have way too much stuff? Yes. It's fair to say that we're consuming less since we're putting out less than half the garbage at the curb each week than we were two years ago. Unrelated fun fact: we now pay twice as much for garbage pickup. Yay!
3. Knowledge is power that sometimes forces you to buy stuff from the devil's Amazon. Much of the frack fight is centered around the health impacts of the extraction industry. Air and water quality are adversely impacted and the air in Allegheny County already isn't great. But I'd been soldiering on in the face of copious reading on the illnesses brought on by benzene exposure and TENORMS and whatnot. I made it through two summers without allergy medicine (mostly because allergy medicine started giving me migraines, but still). I was drinking lots of water, not thinking about what might be in it, and feeling good. Then I started with sinus symptoms in November. A few weeks later, the sinus pain had a good friend in ear pain and a corresponding headache and I started to think this might be related to the plume of woodsmoke that rushes into our home every time the door opens. We can identify at least four neighbors burning extremely smokey fires to heat their homes. Those particles are in here, says the internet. There's no way to keep it out. And so, environmentalism led me to the purchase of a HEPA air purifier made in China. Hopefully, not Uyghur China, but I didn't think of that until the friendly unit was already here. Buying a big hunk of plastic to counteract actual smoke from one's neighbors: fail.

Not that the world needed me to prove that individual action is not the answer to the climate crisis, but my list does lean in that direction. It seems we're all looking for a way to feel good, physically and emotionally, while waiting on the sweeping systemic change that could really make a difference. It won't be sweeping, but for now, I am cautiously optimistic that next week's vote on one well pad in one tiny part of SWPA will be affirming of the work I've done outside of these failed "green" consumer purchases.

More Than a Protest Sign

Showing Up for Racial Justice (SURJ) suggested a way for white people to support protestors after the murder of George Floyd was to stand in front of local police precincts with a sign that says: End White Silence.

We probably should do that here where I live, but the silence around white supremacy and systemic racism is thick in our community. I don’t even think people would understand the message.

I can imagine someone yelling something, anything so they could declare, “I did it. I’m white and I make noise all the time.”

The SURJ advice didn’t seem quite right for me or my immediate neighborhood, but I made the sign anyway and took it on a 30 minute journey to the city where there was a peaceful vigil for victims of police brutality. I hadn’t even figured out where to stand when a black man approached me and asked:

“What does that mean? White silence? What would it mean to end it?”

I’ve thought through this question extensively and was immediately able to offer an explanation with about four examples. This, you should know, is unusual for me. I’m a writer. My brain to mouth connection is really weak. Ask me “what do you do for fun?” and I’m likely to sputter until you give up and walk away.

But on this day, I explained that sign easily because white silence has been my life.

White silence prevented the little community church where I used to give so much of my time from issuing a statement condemning 45s racist “go back” tweet last summer. Other churches made statements, but we don’t talk about those things here. The pastors are sure to give extra time for silent prayers. Those are our favorite kind.

White silence made me too uncomfortable to push back when a fellow volunteer announced she didn’t want to hang a flyer in the Tarentum Family Dollar store even if they do have a bulletin board because “we don’t want those people coming to our event.”

“I think we want everyone to come, Heather,” I said. But I knew by ‘those people’ she meant black people. We can’t make each other feel uncomfortable though and I used to tell myself that if I pushed too hard, I wouldn’t like what was said next about ‘those people.’ Better to let them keep it in. Better if they’re silent.

White silence allows the MAGA hats and flags and signs to pepper our suburbs and rural areas along with “support the police” and thin blue line flags. No one pushes back, even when it’s a confederate flag flying. We don’t ask what it means to the person displaying it or what it is they like about the current occupant of the White House.

White silence is advertised on our township web site in a series of high definition videos touting our police force (we have a lot of 'em) and our safety (did we mention we have so many police?).

Our white silence ensures the kids in our community will grow up just the way we did. We can't change what we don't acknowledge, and that is obviously the point.

What would it mean to end white silence? Lots of uncomfortable social interaction. Deep conversations. Self-examination. But at the end of it, we'd emerge from our fear. We could fight against injustice. We could make America great for the first time.

I brought the sign home and kept it. Perhaps someday I will have the courage to take it to the township building. That would definitely start a conversation.

More Than Fictional Characters

*This post won’t spoil my book, but you should read it first just in case. ;)*

I went to a mediocre public school in an extremely rural part of southwestern Pennsylvania. A couple of years ago, my graduating class met in the bowling alley of a casino for our 20th reunion. 

I didn’t go. 

High school is a nightmare. Really. It’s my recurring nightmare. I can’t find my classes. I can’t work the combination lock. And my personal favorite, there’s a math class (always a math class) that I suddenly realize I’ve not been attending for months. It’s too late to drop the class. I can’t make up what I’ve missed. It’s just failure. Complete, utter, disastrous failure. 

High school was not enjoyable for me as a student. You can read all about it in the second part of ‘More Than a Bad Teacher.’ (That’s the part where multiple reviewers really started getting into the book.) Pep rallies, classes in temporary trailers, Danny... he was a real guy that tortured me during lunch. Ashleigh is mostly me when I was a teen. 

But in the first part of the book, the story is told from the mom’s perspective. And the mom is what one reviewer called ‘abrasive.’ Andy isn’t me, but she interacts with a world I experienced as a substitute paraprofessional at the local school district. This mediocre public school is in the exurbs, an hour and a half north of my alma mater, and the similarities are striking. 

Demographics, middling academics, weird emphasis on sports that hover somewhere between unsuccessful and embarrassing. 

I subbed in all of the buildings, but it was the middle school that gave me stories. And it was in middle school as an adult that I began to wonder why many of the teachers were so miserable. 

So I started writing ‘More Than a Bad Teacher’ as a hypothetical exploration of one teacher’s indifference. Teachers in my southwestern PA district are paid quite well, so that was off the table from the beginning. The middle school building has regular issues with mold, the gym had a bucket to catch a constant drip from the leaking roof, there were no staff bathrooms, and the teachers’ lounge was an empty classroom devoid of any color or personal touches. It was outfitted with a microwave, table and chairs, and a copy machine because no human should ever just relax for a bit. The infrastructure could make a person miserable, so that gets Andy down a little. 

Her home life isn’t going well. That takes a toll. But Andy is at the point where she dehumanizes her students. She thinks they’re all little dummies. They try to talk to her and she reacts by heaving a huge sigh. Andy ignores IEPs. 

And as I wrote her life, I could imagine that Andy was desperately bored. She wasn’t engaged with the course material and her students certainly weren’t. Her authority was constantly undermined by a consultant the district hired to boost state standardized test scores. She wasn’t a bad teacher, not really. It’s just that she wasn’t supported. She needed something more than take home pay to have workplace satisfaction.

Andy gets a jolt before the third part of the story that forces her to examine her situation. By the end of the story, she’s made great gains. The turnaround may be pollyannaish, but she’s not abrasive anymore and you can imagine her life continuing to improve. That’s what I like to think happens to her. 

But I’m still waiting for our real life public school to get that kind of jolt. We sit with a C+ grade on Niche. Niche and Great Schools aren’t perfect measures of school quality, but the grades in my area do correspond to the reputations of each district. Our teachers are paid as well as those in nearby A+ schools. It’s time to look at what resources other than teacher pay are being provided. 

I was not a teacher. But even as a substitute teacher’s aide, I felt crushed by going to work everyday having to hope the teacher’s bathroom stall was empty and that a pack of sixth graders didn’t come in to practice their makeup. And I wonder if great schools find a way to encourage and reward more creativity in the classroom. They surely attract first rate teachers, but they must also provide training and support and appreciation. And maybe a leak-free roof and mold abatement for good measure. 

There’s something wrong with our schools. It’s time for a broader conversation about what can be done to make it right.